For most of this year, I have fully embraced the image of a divorced man https://onlinedivorcer.com/blog/how-to-keep-your-401k-in-a-divorce. I don't handle separation well, so I fully experienced all the feelings of loss without any pattern or warning. For several months it was difficult to do anything else. I raced across the surface of the raging sea. Waves of deep emotions - unfamiliar and extremely uncomfortable - changed me. The person I was eventually ceased to exist as the storm continued. Now the storm in my heart has subsided somewhat, but I am definitely someone new.